Ego 1: I Am the Only Ego in the World … by Alice B. Clagett ..

  • The Antisocial Personality
  • Blood Sacrifice and Cannibalism
  • Raiding; Killing of Men
  • Stealing of Another Man’s Manhood
  • ‘Blood Brother’ Bonding
  • In Summary

DISCLAIMER: All references in this blog to an antisocial personality, psychopath, sociopath, cult leader, cult, serial killer or cannibal are completely fictional (unless they are backed up by a news source and the name of a convicted person). If not backed up by a person’s conviction, they are from the clair plane, which has no pertinence whatsoever to the physical plane of reality. Any resemblance of these hypothetical astral stories to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

Dear Ones,

Here is one case of atypical concept of ego, to do with a child’s loss of the mother in early childhood. The person thinks: I am the only ego in the world. Everyone else is just an piece on my chessboard!


The result is what is termed in psychology ‘the antisocial personality’.

The sexual subtheme in the early childhood wounding, in this instance, resulted in sexuality being confused with death and killing, and expressing itself in this context as the child grew up.

Each of these expressions of killing as linked to sexuality can, I feel, be described as atavistic, as expressing themes worked through and generally sublimated in the progress of humankind from savagery to civilization.

In the instance described in the video, I feel this occurred because the shock of loss of the mother in early childhood threw the child back to a time before he began to learn socialization skills. Because the mother was gone, and he was all alone, there was a reorganization of his world view that excluded the mother. So the behaviors he undertook as he grew up excluded the concepts of family and a larger community, although I feel it had some kinship with primitive tribal practices.


For instance, this young person turned to cannibalism as an expression of communion with his mother, and in terms of the subconscious mind, symbolically being nurtured by the mother, who had passed on. This was expressed in ‘blood sacrifice’ of wives in later life.

This ritual sacrifice of the ‘wife’ or ‘mother’ was one of several blood sacrifice themes expressed by this person as he matured. In the video, I’ve described how this theme of blood sacrifice is an atavism, a throw-back to the early history of humankind, one such instance being the ancient Aztec practice of blood sacrifice of human beings to ensure the annual fertility of crops.

This practice may have had to do with subconscious symbolism: Early man may have observed women’s menstrual blood flowing, followed by conception of a child. He may have missed out on the role played by men, and the significance of semen. Thus the subconscious might have made a shortcut like this: Blood must flow, for fertility to occur.

It might also have had to do with early humankind’s experience of fierce predators such as lions and tigers dragging off their tribes people during the night. After such an incident, which must have inspired terror in the tribes people, there would have been a lull of a few days as the predator would be well stocked with food, and this would bring a feeling of relief, of temporary safety. These no doubt recurring incidents might have given the tribe the notion that fears, such as that of starvation through a poor harvest, could be quelled by offering human sacrifice.

As humankind matured, this blood sacrifice was toned down to sacrifice of animals, such as the sacrifice of lambs and goats described in the Bible. Then in more modern times, Christian churches express


Another was to make lone, nightly forays to kill men for a feeling of sexual thrill. Should this raiding have taken place in the context of a small group of companions or underlings, this would be more reminiscent of tribal aggressive expression of a head-man or warlord nature.

These practices have their precedents in ancient human times, as, for instance, in the forays of armed, horsed men such as those of Attila the Hun (434 to 453), the Viking raids of England (8th and 9th century), by modern-day soldiers of fortune, and in many other instances in human history.

There is less of a congruence with modern-day wars, which are sanctioned by governments. Rather, It seems to me that this person’s behavior in regard to killing of men was an atavistic expression of killing individually undertaken.


Another of his means of sexual expression was as follows: Together with another man, he would assault a lone young man; his friend would restrain the young man, and he would lop off the tip of the penis and swallow it. This latter practice, which carries back to ancient days of the human race, expresses the subconscious symbolism of stealing the manhood from another person and consuming it so as to magnify one’s own manhood.


On the astral plane, his sexual expression sometimes contrived as follows: He would arrange for a second man, a friend, to perpetrate a murder on the same day and at the same time as he. The antisocial personality, being clairvoyant and capable of astral travel, would experience the thrill of two murders at the same time … the murder done by his friend, and that done by himself.

Modern-day governments sanction bonding as ‘blood brothers’ through war. Street gangs also do this, to cement membership loyalty. The distinction with the person in the video has to do with the individuality of it: an agreement by two friends, not sanctioned by a government. One is, in this instance, one’s own government. One makes one’s own rules.

Bonding as ‘blood brothers’ among the young today is more often practiced without the murder of others. For instance, I recall from childhood the suggestion of a ritual pricking of fingers, drawing of blood, and touching together and mingling of blood, among young friends. Also, of tasting the blood drawn from a friend’s finger. Here is a stepping down of the ancient ritual, so that the very powerful subconscious symbolism is expressed, but in a way more amenable to societal expectations.


Because of the atavistic nature of the above acts, I feel that the astral story conveying this antisocial personality energy may be clearing through primitive archetypal memories of the human race. I also feel that the person or persons enacting these antisocial personality skits during the great clearing of the Awakening, have expressed Soul agreements to help with the clearing.

Speaking to the arena of law enforcement, in the context of the welfare of the human community, I nevertheless feel that it would be best to restrain antisocial personalities from acting out during the Awakening, insofar as possible.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars



“Antisocial Personality Disorder,” Mayo Clinic,

“Antisocial Personality Disorder,” Wikipedia,


“Human Sacrifices in Aztec Culture,” Wikipedia,

“Offerings and Sacrifices,” Wikipedia,

About Holy Communion: “Transubstantiation,” Wikipedia,


“Attila the Hun,” Wikipedia,

“Invasions of the British Isles,”Wikipedia,


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